Welcome to the Beings of Light... Spiritual Crisis Connection
This is a place to meet friends of like mind, heart and experience

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21 Dec 2003

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"You have taught what you are, but have not let what you are teach you" - 'A Course in Miracles' Love that quote and love watching life unfold as I come back into myself more and more, letting go of fear more and more and allowing the CAUSE of my life be shown to me as my own thinking, watching the EFFECT as life unfold .. (-: Dean, 29, Cape Town, South Africa ! Have a happy Christmas all ! ! deanv@teleassist.com

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29 Dec 2003

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Hello, I have visited this site many times but in the last year I haven't been here so I'm glad to see that I can write a few words. I have been (since 93) in process of awakening as a walk-in. And yes crisis does end or complete but I am finding that I almost miss the angst. How does one live now that the process is mostly complete? I never thought I would ask that question. my email is starwoman1@earthlink.net just call me Starr

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10 Jan 2004

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Thanks for putting this site together. I have had the strangest things happening in my life for the past year or so. Its good to see there may be a end to it all somewhere, but I am praying it will not be 7 years in the coming. If it is, it is though. tehya_taborri@yahoo.com any encouraging words I can find, I am latching onto. Thanks again. Becky

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13 Jan 2004

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Hi, my name is Diana. My own Dark Night of the Soul began in 1959 and have continued until about 2001. I'm not interested in telling you about my own experiences. What I want to share is that there is much, much healing help and the Dark Night can be healed. Deep within our subconscious mind are many layers of lifetimes of experiences that has severely damaged our psyche. Here are some healing methods that can help. Emotional Freedom Therapy. EFT. Something that you can learn and do for yourself. Also hynotherapy by qualified therapist. Soul Journey is a book I highly recommend and there are therapists who can help by taking you back to a life between life session that will help you understand why you are where you are today. There is a magnificent holographic breathwork healing called Eupsychia. This particular one was a turning point for me. And then there is Reverse Speech therapy. You can plug into all of these words on a search engine on the Internet. My own experience is that my own hell would not have eased up had I not desperately been seeking help from healers. I realize that this is not the path of all who have these experiences. Some souls must make their walk and then suddenly it will be over for them. But this was not the case for me. I encourage anyone who wants to help themselves get out of the darkness and move into the light to make moves to do so. It isn't necessary nor up to God to bring it to an end. It's up to us to decide when it will end. Blessings, Diana

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24 Jan 2004

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I am in the midst of a crisis and I cannot see a way out. I recently had a Kundalini awakening and I don't know what it all means. I see these encouraging words, but at this moment they seem empty...I know they are true, but I am in a pit of despair and cannot seem to claw my way out. All I can say is that the only thing I have left is a hope that things may get better. I have felt the angels wrap their wings around me and hold me close-they have carried me this whole time. They are the only ones keeping me alive. I pray that this may be worth it and I hold to my hope. A tiny diamond in a sea of coal.... hollyspring83@hotmail.com

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02 Mar 2004

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'I offer you peace. I offer you love. I offer you friendship. I see your beauty. I hear your need. I feel your feelings. My wisdom flows from the Highest Source. I salute that Source in you. Let us work together for unity and love.' - Mahatma Gandhi - Prayer for Peace. This is what I have to share. I started my path in 1992 & am an indigo adult. Please know that we are all LOVE & LOVED. We must release all that we are not to experiance & embrace that which we are. "NO MATTER WHAT YOU PERCEIVE- IT IS LOVE YOU RECEIVE" Deva Magdalena. I am a natural healer & messenger of love. It would bring my great joy to assist anyone on their path. My name is Setatae`ti (Seti, for short) my e-mail is angelshaman07@hotmail.com Peace be with you all. Love is all there is!

Date:

22 Mar 2004

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My name is Ian Crane, I am 47 years of age and I currently live in the English west country. My 'awakening' commenced in May 1997, in my 41st year. I dived into depths of the 'Dark Night of the Soul'; emerging in September 2001, thanks to superb mentoring from my meta-physical professor. In the interim period, I endured a rather acrimonious divorce, ended a nineteen year relationship with my employer (a major International Oilfield Services Company), degenerated into a $1,000 per week drug addiction and sampled the hospitality of Harris County Jail in Houston Texas. To 'rehabilitate' myself, I spent a six months playing golf before returning to Europe in 1999. By which time I naively believed that I was ready to get back into industry. Joining a global Telecommunications company in the role of Vice-president of Human Resources for Europe, Middle-East & Africa, I felt that I was back on track. But I was completely missing the point, wasn't I? Round two of the Dark Night of the Soul' commenced in September 2000, after just three months in my new position. My use of chemicals become an every day event but this time taking me into shamanic experiences which were totally outside of my prevailing worldview ..... but my metaphysical professor knew exactly what he was doing! Jung acknowledged Philemon as his guide and I have ..... well, another well known archetype. Under his guidance and direction, I have experienced the most amazing period of (re)learning. I could never have realised just how much I had forgotten! Nicholas observes that once you ask for 'help' that, "you'd better fasten your seatbelt". But what a ride!! The awakening process is gathering pace at a phenomenal rate and I am humbled by what I have learned over the past few years but we still have much to learn. There is no desire on my part to return to the mundane. Today, I have no agenda. The universe provides for all my needs and I am humbled to be in the service of the universe. Fellow travelers wishing to share experiences may contact me on ianr.crane@virgin.net

Date:

23 Mar 2004

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Hello, I seem to be in an emotional crisis again. My spiritual awakening began in 1987. Since that time, our family experienced the death of my husband to suicide. I believe that the growth I experienced helped me deal with that issue to some degree, however I am now feeling alone, scared and very fearful for one of my daughters. My oldest daughter is going through a very difficult bitter divorce, and a child is involved. I cannot bring myself to feel anything but total disdain for her soon to be ex-husband. I am having an extremely hard time finding my own light. I seem to be in total darkness in reference to this issue. Any words of wisdom of guidance from anyone would be appreciated at this time. Blessings, Sharon O'N  onei4602@bellsouth.net

Date:

27 Mar 2004

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Thank-you I to have stumbled on this web-site. I have asked how one can be happy without their soulmate in this lifetime? I understand that you fill your self-up with doing life, but that does not fill the void. ooleeus@yahoo.com Light and Love, Julie

Date:

07 Apr 2004

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Well first off let me say that I have visited this site several times and really enjoy it. I am glad to see that other people are going through similar situations that I am. I just recently got fired from my job at Walmart and I have had the very strong feeling that Walmart is not the place for my spiritual growth to grow so I had to do what I did to get fired. I regret it but have a deeper inner understanding of why it happened and that it was to help me grow on a spiritual level. I can feel the major changes that are going on with "Mother Earth" and that it is a very major rollercoaster sometimes, you feel like everything is going great and then you feel like all the work you did was for nothing. But you have a inner deep knowing that you know it was not for nothing and that it was to prepare you for the future. Well those are my comments and experiences that I can share, I hope that helped someone. Chris thedonreturns@yahoo.com

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03 May 2004

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hello out there! i've been experiencing the "shift" lately-gaining more awareness with every vibrational increase. it's nice to know that there are others out there who have been experiencing the ascension as well! it gives me hope for humanity and mother earth. email: shawndomingues@msn.com

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04 May 2004

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How Is it Ive fell in love so bad that i tought i was seeing visions, My heart broke, or opened (i dont know which) Yet theres so much of it that i dont know what to do with it. What is this? It is so powerful that it made me aware of advanced inteligence. Im still in awe!!!! rhettl7@yahoo.com

Date:

06 May 2004

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All of this stuff you have written here resonates with my higher being especially about reincarnation being a huge part of Christianity and that it's part of our way of finding our path to our original source to God by continuing to grow lifetime after lifetime in balancing out all karma. I am a taoist at heart, but this hits the spot with my ongoing debate over the dogma that resides within Christianity and now, everything is crystal clear. Amichan10@aol.com

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19 Jun 2004

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I have been in many dark times throughout my own life. I have "suffered" and fought my way back to light. Now I am helping others who are in the darkest times of their lives (after Sexual Assualt &/or Domestic Violence) My hope is that by coming to this web site I can gain insight to assist me too assist them, back through the tunnel of despair and into the light. Love & Blessings! I would love to hear your stories of triumph. Please contact me @ safireose@yahoo.com thank you Safirerose

Date:

30 Jul 2004

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Hello all I love this site and draw from it often in making my life transitions. It is a process and I find that few wish to go into a time of introspection much less see it through. I went from being a Christian pastor to realizing that most of what I had been taught and was teaching was not accurate or in many ways, not even encouraging. Shame, guilt and fear seem to be so much of organized Christianity that I just could not continue. Divorce followed and a do over began. I went from thousands of aquaintances and hundreds of friends to about nothing. It is true that those we leave behind in one box, seldom want to follow us into a bigger one to grow and learn. Thank you for this website. It is simple, profound and very helpful encouragment to those of us who find ourselves on this journey of discovery. Please feel free to write. I need new and open minded friends in my life. Warm regards Dennis SCMassageTherapy@aol.com :) 

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03 Aug 2004

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Wow!! thanks so much for all the posts - a place where my feelings of "insanity" actually don't seem to be so wierd. I've been on an amazing journey for the past almost four years now - one that even though, I have been through a lot of life experiences, has left me feeling on the brink of despair recently. Feel free to e me at CRitabe@sbcglobal.net As a lot of you have written, I have experienced major loss seemingly back to back; my career, my marriage, empty nest syndrome, friends that I had had for years, financial loss, etc....... At first I kept thinking that this is just an "event" and I will pick myself up again and dust myself off. However, very recently, I have realized that I am in the midst of something very, very life-changing going on. My recent read of a book "The Power of Now" helped me to see that I have been shedding layer upon layer of "ego" and getting really in touch with "Being". It is very frightening to me as I have always been a very organized, self-sufficient, and ""productive"", successful person. I feel, at times, that there will be nothing left of me when this process ends. E add. CRitabe@sbcglobal.net

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12 Aug 2004

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I can help with Spiritual Crisis myself I do understand how it feel to go through it and have no Idea what is happening to you. waking up and being scared and not knowing where to go. Yet i still am growing and learning from each experience. I would love to help or give back what i have gone through. dcurto_carvalho@hotmail.com

Date:

15 Aug 2004

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Hi, Thank you for your website, what a gift! I have been channeling very powerful information from higher energies which I now realize is acting as a guide to take me through the death of my ego and to the realization of who I really am. My 'problem' at the moment is based on the whole concept of what money & work is. I have channeled on it many times and keep getting the same responses....Follow your heart, don't do anything for money....Trust in the unlimited Source.....listen to your feelings.....let go of the attachment to money....There is a reality beyond my current state where my Perfected state exists...., money is part of the separation, it is not good or bad, but no longer necessary.... The ideas were presented to me in a more elaborate way, but that is basically what I am receiving. Yet I recently lost my job and at the moment struggling just to make ends meet. I then was shown a powerful vision of a world where money was no longer necessary and the possiblity where people only do those things which their heart calls out for (teaching, healing, preparing foods, building things, science & creating electricity...etc.) In my vision, which is hard to describe here, I actually could feel and understand how the concept of no longer using money and only doing those things which allow the flow of creativity and love really could be possible. But then I find myself in this 3D reality where whether I agree with it or not, money is needed to pay rent, to eat, to live. And I have had a terrible time getting myself to go back out in the corporate world and find another job, because if I do that, it will only be to make money, and it's not what my heart cries out for. I understand it's about complete surrender, but the fear of becoming homeless & uncomfortable is a very real issue I have. If anyone has gone through this experience, where you woke up and realized that you no longer wanted to do anything just for money yet it seems like there is no other alternative way and you have insight, I would love to connect with you. I also would love to share what I have been writing, the material has been so powerful for me on so many levels. Love & Light-Melissa melissablon78@yahoo.com

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09 Sep 2004

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hello to all, i am a 34 year old single male, untill two years ago i was a very well known chef and in a wounderfull relationship with the girl i thought i would marry so we got engaged, two years ago that ended, the reason we just drifted away from each other,two years ago i had to give up my career the reason i had an accident at work, ever since that time evrything has been taken away from me bit by bit, the doctors have tryed to medicate me somthing i strongly disagree with, i was upset and alone i had no idea of direction any more and become an extreamly humbled person, i have never had much time for religion i find that aesop's fables have been a better set rules for life, anyways religion only offers fear and eternal damnation be honest its not very attractive is it and i do belief we are brainwashed in to religion at an early age its even taught in school need i say more, back to the piont i am very lost inside myself now and feel very alone i have recently reached out and did make contact with some one who is also going through this but they need help too i would love to help but i do not understand, i have always been scientific and logical but now nothing seems to make sense, and i often feel as though i am in another place which is why people dont seem to notice me, this is a very dark place that i am experiancing and i feel as though i am reaching the other side but now need some guidence, please any body help me. i have always been very spiritual in my aproach to life in genrall and know the concepts and teachings of the elders from many societys and cultures through my personal hunger to research these subjects,but am now ready to trust and embrace them, i want to help others like me but need help to help me too. so i am calling to any who hear this cry please contact me darenworld@hotmail.com may light shine on you always.and thakyou for any assistance offerd . daren united kingdom

Date:

08 Dec 2004

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Greetings Light beings.. this is joy from india. i have gone thru a deep crisis which lead to my dark night.. not sure its dawn yet coz i still feel lost detached sometimes other times its all peace i view the world differently..  i know everyone is living their life plans.. earning their karmas burning out their karmas.. ah theres so much to learn. Feel this oneness with all creation yet detached. Crisis indeed! joy4everiz@hotmail.com

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02 Jan 2005

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HI, my name is Christina and I'm 20 years old. I've been on a path of realization and learning for a few years, and I've been going through spiritual crises on and off during this time. When I go through a spiritual crisis I seem to get scared and get off track from where I need to be. I've noticed that tonight U have realized a lot concerning my life and the direction its been heading, and I've seen where I need to progress, this transformation taking place...and I feel so happy. But now I feel so nervous inside!! When I start to find out a little more, I get all of this nervous energy and I feel like screaming. I'm not sure I know how to deal with this transformation. It feels so hard sometimes. I would like to talk to anybody who has any advice or loving words. Thank you. sphericalcurrent@aol.com

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20 Feb 2005

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I experienced a spiritual awakening approximately 13 years ago. I remember it starting with a prayer one evening by my childrens bedside to be saved from the hell we were living in. Following this prayer things got much worse very fast. I lost my children to protective services while incarcerated for alcohol and drug offensese. Through years of extreme emotional and spiritual suffering I finally had a spiritual experience and my life was given back to me. I was given another chance. I have been blessed with numerous miracles through the years and life has been quite smooth. I am finding myself in much inner turmoil again. My oldest is now 16 and she needs to be saved. I have prayed and prayed for her and once again following my prayers things seem to only be getting worse. You would think since I have been through such a thing before my faith would be strong but I feel scared for her and my family. Not only does life seem uncertain for her but many changes seem to be occuring outside and inside myself. I feel like my life has been turned upside down and I,m searching for answers. I don't know that I will ever turn to prayer again after experiencing it's effects now twice in my life. I'm really searching for answers!! I'm feeling defeated!! mljaco@centurytel.net

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20 Feb 2005

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hello my name is Jean--I have recently married and am experiencing a loss of who I am. It is a disasterous relationship that involves children ex-wives, ex-husbands and ex-girlfriends. I thought I would be stronger because of this union--that I would have someone to work with on our journey. I thought too that he understood this. But it seems he continues to take energy from me--I don't know how to protect myself from having my energy sucked from me--I feel drained and hopeless. Help. ottootto@lakedalelink.net 

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15 Mar 2005

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Hello, my name is Tina and I am in another spiritual crisis. I am working with a man that is sucking the energy from me and not only am I feeling very drained but I am extremely angry trying to protect myself. This is wasting more of my energy. How do I protect my energy??? This teacher of mine keeps returning and I would really like to learn and manage the situation instead of having to leave it. I am very sensitive to environmental energies, and others energies; unfortunately I am like a sponge for the bad ones as well. Please help! My e-mail is  gabrielle5@shaw.ca      

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24 Mar 2005

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Wow,.....What a wonderfully enlightening piece,...to learn & grow with,..I hadn't read this one before,..thanks so much for sharing it,.....Blessings,....Linda

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25 Mar 2005

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I am in a crisis, I am usually the one who tells people where to go for help but I am lacking it for myself, I am having inner turmoil and I am not sure what it means or why I am going through it - there is confusion and an element taht I am standing still and not going anywhere. It is ironic that I am going through this and that the accumulation of it is at Easter. I need some help and advise in where to go but I cannot tell people where I want to go I need to get out of work life but there is a barrier that is stopping me from moving on and doing what my heart wants! Riaob1@oink.co.uk  I would welcome any help and advise and clarification.

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08 Apr 2005

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Hi, I'm Rebecca, I've been going thru this crisis for over 8 yrs now and am coming to the ending stages of it, realizing I'm finding comfort in my own path to "God". I've searched for acceptance for a long time with people when I should have been searching for an acceptance within and with God and myself. So now I'm coming to the next stage of this and I'm pretty confused! jahs4ever@yahoo.com 

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26 Aug 2005

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Aloha - I found this site in four or five clicks, my wife is coming home from a business trip tomorrow and I feel that I need to tell her I'm having a serious spiritual crisis. The awakening began through her, I believe, four years ago. Now, I'm just spun - I feel like there's a battle raging in my soul and "destruction" is winning. I am filled with dread at the realization of what I've done in this life and I'm scared to let anyone in. Anyone. Unless they're far-far-away. I'm reaching out. bingfutch@yahoo.com  - Bing

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28 Sep 2005

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anyone would like to share their experience of the dark night with me, contact at crystearth@yahoo.com  looking forward to learning and sharing

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16 Oct 2005

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I thank you so much for this site, I feel for so many souls at present going through their spiritual crisis, my own spiritual crisis ended when i allowed and accepted myself totally as the spiritual being i am having a human misunderstanding of who i am and suddenly i was accepted by all who was connected to, i left my 3rd dimensional needs and took a giant leap of faith which has given me a totally different life, from a divorced hairdresser, mother to a happily married life to my true soul mate, healer, channel, teacher helping others to achieve the same, it wasn't as easy as that of course but when i recognized i needed healing and did just that, everything has fallen into place because i have learnt when your soul gains its true purpose in life and there is no seperation from God and all that is, I AM FREE. iF ANYONE WISHES TO CONTACT ME FOR ANY FURTHER INSIGHTS I WOULD LOVE TO HELP.     roseash@tpg.com.au 

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13 Nov 2005

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Hi. I am going through a crisis. And I feel completely lost. I don't know what to believe anymore and I don't know what to think. I get these "impressions" of things. I can feel something in the air, but I don't know what it is. I have been feeling it for some time. It feels bad. It smells of blood and smoke. Am I going nuts? Things which once ment something to me are now meanigless. My family is not taking this well. Can anyone offer some advice? Please. fenixfire4@yahoo.com

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21 Nov 2005

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Hi Linda here its interesting reading these messages as has horrendous time since 1997 when hubby had fatl car crash and someone was killed he lost his mind career respect and sanity all of which made us all ill too. we then nearly lost our daughter from a cavenous heamatoma (burst vein in her brain bled) I then lost my ability to complete our family unit was rushed in for a full hystrectomy and lost my health and fell in to a deep depression trying to keep my family safe well and together. Then we all became victims of husbands PTSD fallout and drink problems. Our entire family life was completley wrecked and we also found a legal case collapsed leading to more financial ruin. I  lost my degree that took years to save to do and had to rescue my husband as well as myself from suicidal and clinical depression. I started having strange phenomina happening that made me go to a Spiritualist church.I lost all belief hope in God and felt like I had done something to desserve this as @like attracts like' so we are told in church? which still makes me depressed. I am isolated lost all sense of what I believe in and who I am and have given up. Help needed Linda. My email address is iwaslookingforlinda@yahoo.co.uk  i feel lost so warn out and disorienated and used up. My family life has been destroyed as we feel like 'outcasts' and suffer social isolation and ridicule because of husbands PTSD and demise. I have lost faith and feel guilty for it too.

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04 Jan 2006

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I am glad to find that I have not been alone in what I have experienced. My email: Lesangere77@Hotmail.com  Thank You! Jason

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08 May 2006

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hello, i have travelled the world far and wide in search of answers for this 'spiritual madness.' i have lost my husband, my house, friends, and even my father is going... almost. I am anxious and depressed. 3 years of this. after reading the posts, i realize what this is but it doesn't help. I just want it to end. Does more suffering mean that i am more ego attached? is God waiting for me to let go and love? I am tired. so tired. I want this to stop. If anyone has anything they want to share, please contact me at kamaladevilove@yahoo.com  namaste 

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18 May 2006

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i have been sitting in front of my computer for about an hour trying to figure out how i am going to find what i am looking for. finally i just typed in spiritual crisis and i found your site. thank you, thank you, thank you. your discription was me all the way. now i know i am not going crazy, but my ego is fighting back, not wanting to retreat. now i know there's help and hope

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25 May 2006

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I'm so happy I found this site. I've been dealing with this for awhile now after several things happening in my life. I'm yet to know or understand where I belong or why I feel so lost and out of place all of the sudden. And there are days that my whole system feels totally out of sink with the world. And things don't feel the same with me Spiritually anymore so i'm trying to understand and make just make it on this path. Thanks for this site!!

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14 Jul 2006

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Hi. I'm on my own spiritual path in which I'm not sure where its leading, but I know one thing with all my heart and soul, that no life is worth living without GOD. If I have to live on this planet with out him I don't want to continue. Its like he is my first love and nothing makes sense with out him. I have always felt attached to GOD and felt his presence in my life, I couldn't have made it this far with out GOD. I want to say thank you GOD for guiding me and my decisions. I'm on my journey and I'm scared but I know that GOD is always there even when it may feel like he is not. I have been through alot this year and the past years but it has worked out for the better. I'm learning that without GOD I am nothing. Nothing matters to me in the material world if GOD is not there to walk with me.

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19 Jul 2006

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Hi my name is Joseph. I am a first time vistor to this website - having been guided by Spirit to find you. I was searching for guidance to explain why my life seems to revolve around cycles. I can travel through periods of intense joy, clarity and pure heart love and then everything seems to just stop. In these times I always tend to pick up old addictions that I can't release and this frustrates me incredibly! During these times I feel withdrawn, detached and disconnected though they have been improving... These cyles, at present anyway, seem to last for 2 weeks at a time but are such wild shifts that sometimes I just don't know who to cope. Does anyone have any suggestions? At the very least, I am glad to be able to share a small part of my story with you. Thank you for listening. With Love

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12 Aug 2006

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Hello, Beings Out There....it is 6:05am and I have been up all night, searching the universe for some sign of life. I believe that I'm going thru a spiritual crisis of some magnitude. I fit all the criteria on "the list". Although I keep plugging away in some fashion every day, the desperation and hopelessness isn't lessening and I feel I must be perpetuating this situation by dwelling on it so much. Does anyone out there have any ideas or experiences to share with this lost soul? a_rosebud@yahoo.com

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06 Sep 2006

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Hi my name is Hazel, can anyone explain why, when Im definately awake first thing in a morning, I experience what feels like a cat jump on my bed, {I have no animals}or feel someone sit on my bed when no-one is in the house. I then feel disentoriated all day. hazelkidd2002@msn.com

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26 Sep 2006

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hi my name is traci, im 43years old, i believe at present im experiencing spiritual crisis...i feel no control in my life, its so profound im so scared. my anxiety levels so high causing me to suffer panic attacks. i feel like a ghost unable to touch anyone that knows me, for they dont understand what im feeling, sensing. i feel so lost frightened...if i could talk connect to someone who understands maybe i wont feel so detached. please is their anyone who can guide me through this difficult transition. sincerely thank you. traci x traci_63@hotmail.co.uk

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28 Sep 2006

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The pain is so intense my only wish is for non-existence. The Dark side is winning, it's evident in all society. Energy is energy, how does one flip it? dr.mhenry@yahoo.com 

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01 Oct 2006

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Thank you for this site! I just stumbled on it earlier today by following a link on a forum I visit occasionally that just said 'an interesting read'. I have ended up sifting through this site most of the afternoon/evening. A lot of what I have read resonates with me, with how I have felt. It's not depression per se but lost, detached, almost to hard to put into words yet so much of 'the list' really hit home. It is a true comfort to know this is not just me and others have felt/feel as I do. Be well ~Lori

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28 Jan 2007

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Dear Friends, I am going through a real dark nightm experience with most of the symptoms listed on this web site. This has been going on for six months and I have lost my career and my sense of purpose and direction as well as income. I have always been a spiritualy minded person and had been having deep meditations and spiritual experiences prior to this breakdown it has been a very frightning experience. But I refuse to give up what I know to be true spiritualy speaking. This has been a terrible time with a descent into madness and terrifying fear and confusion. I am very slowly begining to come out of this. It has been very hard for my family. I would appreciate any distant healing and support. I send love and light out to all. Blessings, Catherine Morganahome@aol.com

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25 Feb 2007

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hi,My name is Traci, I wrote to this site in September, at the time i was extremely frightened, I wish to leave this message of hope...Its been a real tough dark time.I was pushed to an extreme limit like us all, What seemed to be relentless and so over powering is begining to subside...Im not completely free, if i were to say i am would reflect an untruth, What i did discover through this madness-pain-and detachment. We are far more...We learn a deep understanding that we are beautiful.and within our very core we find the light. It takes courage to face such fears, it takes such faith to believe. I felt the odds were against me, maybe you do to...With love in our hearts we WILL get through this together. Godspeed sincerely Tx traci_63@hotmail.co.uk

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28 Mar 2007

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hi i was wondering if there waws any mediums that help people get rid of negative entties ... the above is my situation thank you for reading my email sorry to be a bother ... i do not have any money sorry but i dont know where else to turn thank you so much sincerely yours, nessa my email is monk-5@hotmail.com

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02 Apr 2007

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I am a spiritual healer & am a member of the Sussex healing assocation, I am 72 years of age & a practicing healer for the last four, I am in a new development groupe, I was told by severle meadiams that my spritiual roll will be a trance meadiam but I feel grounded, Can eny one give me advise please... thomasfarrell8@hotmail.com

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13 Apr 2007

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Hi my name is Lorraine and I too have been experiencing a spiritual crisis for the past year, but realistically if I reflect back this journey may have started alot earlier. I am so grateful to you all for sharing your own journeys and to know I am not alone in this. Sometimes it feels like a nightmare,sometimes enlightening, sometimes in the depths of despair.. Right now I feel elated I have found more information to help me along the path. Blessings lstewart@woosh.co.nz

Date:

03 May 2007

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Wonderful website, thank you! All this is real!

Date:

11 May 2007

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my personal message does anyone know the new address of a healing organisation in texas called The golden sprial or raingbow crossing please email me lovelylite13@hotmail.com 

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02 Jun 2007

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jmaynard2007@gmail.com  God is how I survive.... God is My Life..... In my darkest hour which is now.....I have no answers....But My God does..... I have 6 children and they are all adopted.... They are the Greatest!!!! My husband and I cannot imagine our old life.... 5 of the children are siblings and came into our world through an emergency... Please keep us in your prayers and May God Bless each person who reads this with "Joy"... In God's Precious Love Always, joe ann

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07 Jul 2007

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I am now 44 years old. When I was 20s I experienced a very enlightening moment of being one with God. Since then I have been obsessed to come to that state again and lost interest in any other things and life has been getting drier and drier. From the past 4 years to now things seems to get even worse. I have been suffering from severe dark night, feeling abandoned by God in total darkness. Psychiatrist doesn't seem to help much. I am in despair now and wondering as to there will be an end to it. My email is sembloh1@yahoo.co.id .

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23 Nov 2007

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I have felt it 5 years ago. It was hard time. I thought I die. I saw nightmares in my dreams. But I felt that the truth near. I saw other world. Light and Darkness. But I was not strong. And The man has closed energy channel to me because i wanted. Now i can't see that anymore. And my life is empty. I wanna say: be open, be lovely... From Russia. linka.ru@gmail.com

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18 Dec 2007

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i have experienced this spiritual crisis and i was diagnosed with depression. i thought otherwise becausse i knew that i was going through an identity crisis. this is a great website

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23 Dec 2007

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my husband and I are seperated right now do to the Dark night but he does not understand and I really want him to I do love him very much what can I do. Please help Shanny41@hotmail.com

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06 Jan 2008

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for 10 plus years i have felt a deep depression and a sense of whats the purpose? somethings very wrong with me---almost constant thoughts of suicide but doubt ill act---searching for serenity----only comfort i recieve is from mother nature and her wonderfull animals----any thoughts?crowbird333@yahoo.com

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11 Jan 2008

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This profound teaching has let out fear in me because of what I am experiencing "ego death" I never understood what really was going on, thanks to this readings I now understand. - Jesse e-mail:owsj5@netscape.net

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13 Jan 2008

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raachel271@gmail.com  I have had serious pain in my lower back, loss of energy, mental/emotional explosions, most other problems from what sound like to me "rising Kundalini" blocked in the "fire channels" and unable to reach the Ida, cooling channels. For 2 1/2 years the pain was quite severe and then came and went. If I don't follow certain ritual of prayer certain times a day the pain comes back as before, something I cannot describe. I'm not sure if there is possession but I do have voices, throbbing in my left ear and of course the pain.

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23 Feb 2008

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I had profound awakening in May '07. My awakening experience I had... I HAD TO DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING!!! I bought candles (for meditation... which, I'd never, ever meditated) and bought some foods for Food Bank. This was beginning of my Journey back HOME! At first... I felt LOTS and LOTS of JOY and want to give LOVE to everyone!!! It was an amazing feeling!!! Then comes "Dark Night of the Soul" This started off slow, then momentum picks up of releasing "OLD". Ego's, controlling, etc... I've had 5 Major release (this is where, I would go into total breakdown and yelling, crying, angry, feeling sorry for myself, blaming my Higher - Self for not helping and abandoning me, I even blamed them (my Higher-Self and my Home-Planet) for lying to me. Last breakdown was the worst (this just happened about a week ago) and it went on and off for awhile, however, last few days (about 2 days) I totally lost control of myself!!! One thing good about is, once this epos is over... all calmness, loving feeling and peacefulness comes back. Then... you start all over again! Dark Night of the Soul is on going thing until one release completely of all the OLD's from Past Incarnations and this Life. I am also find that... whatever issues your Higher-Self is bring up for you to review it... it is exact MIRROR image of how you have treated other people or they ARE treating you! I had hard time connecting this at first, not until it was my on going health issues... I then connected ALL my Angers, frustrations, control, etc... that I was feeling with my health issues was due to my past incarnations and present life!!! It's AMAZING once, you connect the issues, it's much easier to release and let go!!! bunnyfawn@comcast.net  abandoning me

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21 Mar 2008

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I believe in what you say. I have been searching for answers for all this trauma that came out of no where. I have lost everything and sit alone. I am psychic and it seems that since I got stronger in this, that my whole world came crashing down. My email is mountainsunset72@aol.com

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28 Mar 2008

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My name is Jean, 28years old. I'm a perfect fit for the listed symptoms. The past 17months or more has been a mightmare, a real tortuous and shuttering experience. Prior to this devastating experience i was enjoying a subtle yet effusive union with the Devine. My entire life is now shuttered as i continue to sink deeper into this ominous quagmire. In my relentless search i came by this site and sighed for relief. I'm comforted by the shared experiences. please reach out to me with any help/support,(adjeijean@yahoo.com). Thank you for this wonderful site.

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05 May 2008

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Hi My name is Alexandria and I found this particular article to hit home. I would very much like to meet some like minded people on here. My email address is outof10000@yahoo.com  I look forward to conversing with anyone here and sharing our heart felt experiences. Light and Blessings, Alex

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12 May 2008

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So much wonderful talk about the soul and other planets and benevolent beings "out there". Yet nobody seems to really understand any of it because even after reading about meditation and answers from within, people cry out: Please help me! Dark night or no dark night, help yourself. People are stubborn imbeciles and hypocrites if they expect someone will plop answers right in their lap and do the work for them. The only reward I have ever gotten for trying to spread the message about peace and love on earth is people calling me crazy or telling me i'm wasting my life. I'm done trying to fight for humans who are nothing more than souless sheeple. Louis_w_f@hotmail.com

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19 May 2008

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Lost will to live. Counting the minutes to sleep. Practically immobilized. Promised not to kill myself. Where is God? Intellectually it makes sense. You say it’s within you, but I can’t stop the chatter and anxiety. I am suffocating, immobilized. Drugs don’t help and am frightened they impede process and give no relief. I pray for courage to care for myself. For God’s love. For consciousness. For the smallest grain of faith. Jill jsa@magadog.net 

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01 Aug 2008

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It is comforting to know that I am not alone in all of this! Why is it that so many people who write and talk about the 'spiritual path' fail to mention such 'dark nights?' It's not all about love, light and bliss is it? It's about courage, it's about faith and it's about being willing to 'surrender'. It's about letting go of trying to control life and of wanting it to unfold in the way we want it to as opposed to allowing life to do what it wants to do and to use us rather than us using it! The key word is "allow!" Allow!" Allow!" Allow!" Each dark night is an opportunity for us to let go even more and to trust that it's all happening for our higher good. Keep letting go, keep trusting, keep opening up to the pain of it all and "keep on keeping on" no matter how desperately painful and uncomfortable it gets. Let us allow ourselves to feel and experience it all and when it all feels like crap then accept how it feels without self-judgment or self-condemnation. There's nothing wrong and there's nothing to beat ourselves up about. It's time to go 'home!'

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This earth-life is a school of thought. We are here to become more aware. Awareness of not only our outer lives but that of our inner selves through our outer lives. While traveling though what we call 'our dark night', it is most important that we look around us for lessons that will carry us toward the light. These lessons may come in the form of words we hear from people we speak to on a daily basis. Listen carefully to what you hear for your own inner content. Our inner selves are being reflected to us from these people. Awareness of our outer surroundings, a simple bill-board or sign post you pass every day may suddenly carry with it a clue that will answer your prayers. Seek the messages that are all around you. Everything is a refelction of our inner selves made manifest outside so that we may understand what our true life lessons are. Embrace the dark night with love, understanding and acceptance for it is a true part of our inner selves that we have requested from above to understand more fully. The dark night is our answer to the light of acceptance. When we face it with the energy of fear we create more darkness. We we face it with the energy of love and acceptance we shed light on it and the fear ceases. One major exercise would be to think of your worst pain, your worst nightmare... a person who has deeply scarred you emotionally and figure out why they did it. Try to embrace that other persons fear and anger. Become that other person and look at yourself through their eyes. Why did they hurt you? Truly empathize, understand, then forgive, then release your own pain and replace it with love for that person. Know that person is your angel... here to help you learn more about yourself. Do this in the face of all obstacles. Be aware. Ask why. Be honest with yourself or it won't work. Your true self knows! As you release your pain you shed light on the darkness and night turns to day. We are here on earth and there are archetypal rules we have agreed to follow. Mundane life goes on and we must follow our agreements while here. Until our shift occurs we are of this time-life. We have set boundaries in which to live. Money, work, education, are all part of this time. Work within these structures to find your light. Question everything, but be aware of truth, your personal truth, within your personal reality and you will find the peace and light for which you search. Everything we see outside ourselves is a reflection of within. Use that. Be AWARE. I hope this helps. enlightnme101@aol.com

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04 Jan 2009

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Dear All, Since my childhood I had many knowledgess that only now, when I have gone through profound personal crises last year, really make sense. I would like to be connected with the people who are similar to me, who have uderstanding of spirtual development which is described on this site. I feel that this type of connection is important for mutual empowerment and exchnage. I am lucky in a sense that in what I professonally work on I can integrate some of the ideas and messages I believe in, but spirituality is not my profession, it is a way of my being. Thank you in advance to all those who will contact me, marinaltera@gmail.com  Marina

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08 Jan 2009

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my e-mail Ptmboyani@dla.gov.za  I have recently lost interest in everything i now seek the purpose of life, i'm having problems with my mother and sister, i strangely feel like i do not relate to them, i do not care about my work anymore, i feel like there is more to life than what is considered good life, i feel like i'm missing something that is the key element to my wholeness, i'm a day dreamer i spend most of my time alone day dreaming about flying, saving the world, being the source of love. i can't seem to find my way ,the path i seek

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10 Jan 2009

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my fellow spiritual warriors, i am lori floating in the void. i am in the throes of the dark night of the soul and i want to share with you a tool that is helping me: the words and affirmations of catherine ponder. i received her book " the prospering power of love" from a dear friend and have looked her up on the web and have consequentially become al franken's character "stuart smalley" in that i am constantly reciting ponders' affirmations, especially when my little ego self tries to sabotage my thoughts and emotions, which is most of the time. i am thankful for any support, tools, prayers and insights anyone of you might like to share. remember to bless everything! my e-mail for a short time is danat3d@twlakes.net . bless you all on your journeys, lori floating in the void

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27 Jan 2009

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I seem to be going through a dark night of the soul. I didn't know of such a thing until I read this article. A couple months ago I was ok. I very into positive spiritual development. I was very into Eckhart Tolle and Esther and Jerry Hicks and the like. I was trying to loosen my ego and now, ironically, I feel trapped inside my ego - the voice in my head. You see, in late November 2009, I started to get hit in every direction with a scourge of physical and psychiatric symptoms that don't make any sense and causing great suffering. The doctors are baffled and so am I! I am on unpaid leave from work, stuck at home alone all day and can't drive. I'm in a deep depression. I've lost interest in everything so I can't entertain myself, so the days are empty and endless and I just look forward to sleep and I don't even sleep well. If there's anyone out there who can offer help and hope, or even share a similar story, please email me at candycat70@yahoo.com .

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06 Feb 2009

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Thank you for this page

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26 Feb 2009

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can the dark night of the soul last for 33yrs.+ ? jojo2700@yahoo.com

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12 Mar 2009

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"I" do not know how to begin to describe the complex simplicity , the sheer intensity, confusing and perhaps even absurd nature of the conflict -- or shall i say arguments i am having with that which intiated and has guided "me" along each moment since i fell awake 24 years ago-- This "force" currently feels like a ruthless tyrant that delights in puzzling me with abstractions and sensations and even "messages" in very unusual "places" every second of everyday. "I "do not understand any more.. Honestly "I" am very tired, even infuriated with this chapter in His-Story-ie." me" and that which guides "me/we".. "I" have tried war, "I" have tried insults, Threats, ultimatums, even begged for a more tangable method of discernment-- "Enuff with the petty magic and syncronicitis, Number sequences, intiution pain manipulation--etc-- can u just fucking tell me what u want me too do?? or not do?!!?? "" . but It does not stop-or go away. Perhaps it is " I" who should go away" but short of a shotgun to the head kind of departure , "I" truly do not know how to "go away" anymore" This is is totally new territory, and "I" feel lost, alone and ,very ,very, very sad. This is my first of the the last attempts at reconciliation. If this sounds strange to "YOU" then it is. Please don't send platitudes and bs froo fooo spiritual advice. IF it does sound familiar I beg YOU to help. "I" dont want to quit. "I" really do love being "alive" and experiencing manifestation ,in spite of all of the insanity and pain that comes with the path. "I" am nevertheless extremely tired of "sparring" with these-- angels?? and quite honestly really dont have the energy to care that much anymore. This is hardcore even 4 "me" and its freaking "me" out. I am beginning to question the benevolence or virtue of this kind of "involvment" with Mortals.I also wander now if Love is Supreme. So to any "half in, half out of consentual reality", "left hand" ,"red thread zen" or Kali Ma initiates ---or ANY being that may be able to shed some light or bring some clarity to this "situation" --uh. well help would be be very welcome. Again i ask that only those who are coming from personal experience with such a situation to respond. I do not need to be saved by jesus, bow b4 the great Patriarch-- I need no Vedic platitudes or new age garbage to sift through. I know YOU may mean well but it wont help me. If YOU think im crazy . well then I am. so please refrain from being concerned or sending me medical advice or references or trying to sell me some service or product--TO u I am a lost cause- leave me be,thx but no thx. Enuff Said-- and thx for letting me bend your "ears" whoever YOU are at the moment. "And plz excuse the "net-english" and typos and "harsh" language. "I am here wasn't I" (just a little yogic humor) Send emails: Ot3p11@yahoo.com  GhostFlow3rz@hotmail.com  (not sure i remember my password on this one.I just created the account- But feel free to use it if its more convenient. It should be fine.) Nameste Peace Luv , God or Goddess bless, etc.etc

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26 Mar 2009

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Hi I am going through a dark night of the soul, the feelings of hopelessness and loneliness are at times overwhelming. I am looking for someone with whom i can connect on a spiritual level so we can share and offer suppoet to one another. Soul to Soul you can contact me at ros.power@yahoo.co.uk  Blessings Ros

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15 Apr 2009

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This has really helped the feeling i am going through has brought me to my knees. Need to talk to people share had a guide but he couldnt take me any further. Feel lost cant go back cant go forward would love to communicate with people hramsay67@yahoo.co.uk  x

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01 May 2009

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I am in the midst of a spiritual crisis..its getting quite intense  alexandra_69@hotmail.com 

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28 May 2009

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Hello. I just read this article, and it helped me tremendously as far as understanding the feelings lonliness, hopelessness and isolation!!! I am currently going through my Dark Night. It truly is unlike any emotional or spiritual experience I've ever know in my life before. It is a challenge to push forward, but I'm hanging in there. I am truly greatful for this information, and understand so many aspects of the Dark Night a whole lot better now, and that gives me courage and hope.

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29 May 2009

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Hello. This article has so many messages to help with the dark night process. After just reading it once, the word 'surrender' echoes in my mind and heart. I saw a friend two days ago and she was stunned and speechless to see me cry as I expressed how overwhelmed I am with present challenges. She was shocked and said that she couldn't believe it, that these things don't overwhelm someone like me, and that everyone believes me to be unconquerable. My spirit remains connected to Source but I just realized that I have been nourished by my identity more than by my trust of Spirit. Perhaps I thought them to be the same. Today I begin my journey as 'surrender' and 'trust'. Thank you for this article.

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19 Jun 2009

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This reference has come up at a time in my life that is too clear to pass by. I am in need of guidance. I humbly wait e-mail sedshc@yahoo.com

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31 Jul 2009

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Hi; I'm Sandy, Am I in Dark Night #2, or is this a continuation of the one which began in 1981, which I thought I'd transcended (finally) and was brought to a conclusion in 2006. As the high was high, this low is lowest yet. I have so much to savor; such a journey I've been on until now. This is the darkest yet. Will I make it? It would be sad, a tragedy if, after all that was seemingly overcome,.... On the other hand, maybe it is time now to leave. If this is the case, I am okay with this. I would just like to be able to assume my grace and dignity as I go... Thank you all, San stan0479@bellsouth.net

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13 Sep 2009

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Hello, for the last several years I have been struggling with my faith. I became ill in 2004, met the love of my life (who didn't tell me he was already married) in 2006, was sexually harassed at work for several years. When I finally got the nerve to say something, I got fired from my job. My husband and I had 3 failed IVF attempts. Needless to say... my struggles are well deserved. I am not religious per se, as a matter of fact church has never been my thing. I have always been intuitive (since very young) and was at the level of giving readings until this negativity began. Now I feel like an empty shell. Is there hope for me? debraddeering@yahoo.com

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20 Oct 2009

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A Spiritual friend of many years---the relationship hopefully is "temporarily" ended, but has me going through a dark night----is there hope Am trusting totally in the Lord mfleming@access-one.com

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25 Nov 2009

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Hello I arrived here again today as I am searching again.. its back and time to accept things again!! without bitterness or blaming myself.. just when I thought I had made it everything changes again.. so here am trying to read something nice that will hopefully give me the strength to move on with a bit more humility.. rainbowhope56@aol.com

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30 Jan 2010

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I wait for the world, wake me up, I wait for the morning, I want to give up, I wait for the answers, but I've forgotten the question. fibonaccimatrix@yahoo.co.uk

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12 Mar 2010

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Hi there! My name is Debbie. Ohhh - How I wished I knew what was going on in my life right now. I am living in what seems to becoming a "love-less" marriage ... and I think I have found my twin flame. I KNOW I am in the middle of this Dark Night of The Soul - as written. I feel at peace in MANY ways (is this a form of denial?) but when I see my mate in such turmoil and pain, I feel SUCH sorrow for him - I know I can't go back to what was "normal". I want to know if it's my ego that has me in this place or if it's BECAUSE of my ego, I am learning to let go. I will wait to see WHO God sends me. I am waiting for wisdom. :) to_bee_or_not_to_bee@yahoo.com

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08 Jun 2010

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I feel so empty hopeless stupid lonely unloved abnormal inadequate tired drained hurt lost done. I have no one to trust to love to talk to to understand me. I can't go on like this. Void filling will never help it makes my life worse. Is anything real? I need god to hold me to help me to give me peace to make me want to breath. I don't want to live but my children would be so hurt if I died. I don't care about anything I am already dead but I want to want to live and believe I deserve joy and can experience happiness. God please help me through whatever life I have left hellotmh@hotmail.com

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17 Jun 2010

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I too am going through a dark night of my soul. It has been going on for about two months. I am struggling just to make it through. The tears dont stop and my mind is constantly going. Days are long and nights even longer. I am tired and can't sleep. suzys2010

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28 Jun 2010

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i have become lost in darkness when I thought i was traveling towards the light, the path i have strayed from causes me to stumble,the still small voice i no longer hear,my mind is empty,i fear i have lost my way forever mronan20@yahoo.com

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04 Jul 2010

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I am offering myself to anyone going through a spiritual crisis. I would like to now be of service. please contact me at lisabisher@gmail.com

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15 Jul 2010

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My spiritual mentor has decided its time for me to be alone and strengthen my spiritual connection to God- I had become too dependent on her physical presence (even though she was always distant and objective, at least she was there and I lived in her light energy for 2 years) Now its just me- I have been plonked into a safe but bare and lonely situation and its all up to me. Its as hard as she hinted it might be. When I resist, by stuffing my face with food or watching TV (which is PURE deadly poison), I feel dead. When I give up and accept the void and the reality of what's going on, and the pain, and all the shit that's coming up about in me about myself, I at least feel alive. My monkey brain is fighting meditation but its all (with prayer) that helps.

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15 Jul 2010

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Its really great to read of the experiences- it helps so much to remind me that there is something bigger being worked through us, and a reason why I feel so useless, inadequate, angry, sad, bereft and plain nasty some of the time- that all that bile and dis-ease has to come up and be let go of. And that its not all sweet chanting and grace and lovely smiles- you have to let go of all the crap inside, and that's not a pretty sight or a pretty process!

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30 Jul 2010

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I felt lead to this website. And am aksing for all available help. I went thru the dark night of the soul expereince some time ago. Forgive me, if my question is not quite right for this website as i said I felt led here. I started telepathic comm. with Spirit- channeling- somewhere the light turned into the dark. I didn't know, or recognize the difference until everything I owned has been taken away- I only wanted to get closer to God- to know Him- now, I am faced with homelessness, unemployment and no money at all for the first time ever. The dark energies have been cleared I believe- b/c there is nothing left to take. I need help, If Spirit leads you to write to me please do. I never meant for any of this to happen. I've helped people to grow, to find their light my whole life. Is God disappointed/saddened/hurt in me? Is He teaching me a lesson? What should I say to Him so that he will carry me thru this, find me a home, and restore me. thank you

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01 Aug 2010

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Hi, I just found this site and it was very timely I would say because I am definately in crisis. I feel that I need to make a choice, to surrender. To live my beliefs not just think them. I'm having a very hard time doing that. I am holding on so tightly to my anger and resistance to forgivenss. Thanks for listening. sjbs50@yahoo.ca

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16 Aug 2010

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I am scared I don't understand what is going on I hear conversations even when noone is around, I see colours flickering especially at night, my body shudders with shivers/trembles for unknown reasons, I can't sleep properly this has happened since I can remember and when I do I come crashing back down on the bed. I see pink light down my hallway with a flickering blue light and a vibrant purple light around the entrance to my door. A few times now I have had my phone ring after a very traumatic phonecall with noone on the other end and no phone number and when I go back to check my phone there is no record of it. Lights go dim then really bright in a room I am sitting in and I sometimes get really dizzy and see a flash of white light. I feel someone touching my skin sometimes at night all over and sometimes reaching into my shoulder blades and back it doesn't hurt I am just so confused I need guidance. I feel that I have a very important mission on this planet I don't know what it is and I really need someone to assist me with this PLEASE. Catherine

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02 Sep 2010

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I have lost all my feelings of being connected to the universe in the last 6 months and my spritual/psychic dreams and all that made me, me has completley gone, disappeared, i feel completly lost and have never through all ive been through experienced such complete nothingness, i have literally lost all my depth, leaving me feeling nothing... can any one suggest why this is... i had a short term relationship with a woman for two months ending at xmas, but have never felt so totally paralysed by anything since it finished quite unhappily... but why would this remove all that i was before i met her... any thoughts, yours me, Scott. scottcummings_89@hotmail.com 

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This cycle of my life started nearly 9 years ago. I did not see it for what it was at that time. However, things have gotten progressively worse within the last few months. Once semi-happily married, my husband and I have separated. He moved out with our home going into foreclosure. Leaving myself and 3 kids to pick up the pieces and facing the fear of becoming homeless. I am unemployed and can't find work regardless how hard I have tried. The list of negatives has grown beyond what I have shared here, but I try not to dwell on all of that. I find peace in places I would never have thought possible. I find love in exactly the same manner. However, it was never quite that "easy" a short time back. I bounced from "high" to "low" in lightening speed at the blink of an eye. One day was spent in tears and a nervous wreck. The next would be spent soaring the heavens and feeling that much closer to God. Is my spiritual crisis over? I don't think so, but I can now see light at the end of the tunnel. I know that when this is complete... I will have climbed mountains that I thought impossible, fallen lower than the pits of hell could ever take me, and faced it all... hand in hand with God. We are never alone, as I once feared being exactly that. God is always with us. Looking back on the last few months, which have been the roughest thus far, I know that if God had not carried and/or sheltered my children and myself... I would not be here today. Walk with God... He knows the path for you to take and He will show it to you in time. Love and Peace, Staria

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I am ill myself with ERD (Borderline Personality disorder and Anorexia) chronic adhesions pain After full hysterectomy due to endometriosis blood filled precancerous Cysts & fibroids now have Regular estrogen implants,my balance co-ordination is severely impacted. Due to neurological problems brain problems and under going own tests to establish why? I have long term ERD no anti depressants or anti anxiety works to date and am having now to Go to therapy.I have long term clinical depression suicidal attempts PTSD and am in constant Chronic pain.My husband had car crash in 1997 and all his PTSD and ill health nursing him with No one about to help has made me chronically ill and disabled mentally and physically. Now we are both ill mentally physically with our own CPN's.My husband is a alcoholic in denial Is violent and unrepentant.I am exhausted please could you help me? I have no family no friends No support at home and just washing myself is a real battle.I am isolated have falls and in pain Mentally and physically abused and can not get well or see a future how to change or improve Things.I am living hour to hour most days with impulsive self harming dangerous suicidal behaviors Over medicate and self harm.I have taken over doses.I can not concentrate long term memory Is impaired it scares me I hear voices think am being poisoned and watch my husband drinking Every night now.Am in utter despair.He has diabetics 2 now is over demanding attention seeking Selfish ill and a bully.He has no conscious about his nasty violent outbursts blames me his family and Everyone else his PTSD.My Mum has throat cancer is no support mental or physical and also is very Needy childish and selfish.My daughters disown me and my husband due t his conduct not mine. I tried to help them but to deaf ears.They too like him are selfish do drugs and abusive? My youngest has Bipolar is doing Cocaine.My eldest never contact is abusive verbally too She has used me for her own ends repeatedly like tI am ill myself with ERD chronic adhesions Pain after full hysterectomy due to endometriosis Cysts fibroids and av regular estrogen implants ,my balance co-ordination is severely impacted Due to neurological problems brain problems and under going own tests to establish why? I have long term ERD no anti depressants or anti anxiety works to date and am having now to Go to therapy.I have long term clinical depression suicidal attempts PTSD and am in constant Chronic pain.My husband had car crash in 1997 and all his PTSD and ill health nursing him with No one about to help has made me chronically ill and disabled mentally and physically. Now we are both ill mentally physically with our own CPN's.My husband is a alcoholic in denial Is violent and unrepentant.I am exhausted please could you help me? I have no family no friends No support at home and just washing myself is a real battle.I am isolated have falls and in pain Mentally and physically abused and can not get well or see a future how to change or improve Things.I am living hour to hour most days with impulsive self harming dangerous suicidal behaviors Over medicate and self harm.I have taken over doses.I can not concentrate long term memory Is impaired it scares me I hear voices think am being poisoned and watch my husband drinking Every night now.Am in utter despair.He has diabetics 2 now is over demanding at tension seeking Selfish ill and a bully.He has no conscious about his nasty violent outbursts blames me his family and Everyone else his PTSD.My Mum has throat cancer is no support mental or physical and also is very Needy childish and selfish.My daughters disown me and my husband due I his conduct not mine. I tried to help them but to deaf ears.They too like him are selfish do drugs and abusive? My youngest has Bipolar is doing Cocaine.My eldest never contact is abusive verbally too She has used me for her own ends repeatedly like them. I am a carer but need care 24/7 myself now.I wet myself can't go out alone fall in road fall often Am warn out.what do I do now apart from jump off a bridge run in front of a car? I think like this Every day it is so hard to stay alive.N wonder no one wants to visit talk or spend time with me. Never use to be this bad or think end up like this?I am shocked. Linda.David the man I married died when he Went off to work that day he has NEVER been same person since that day neither have I and his PTSD no doubt has led to our ill health all of us as family.The psychological services badly let us All down not just the police force who corrupted his legal case against them to keep it free from MEDIA Local and Internationally.Volvo and West Sussex Police colluded to use him as a ESCAPE GOAT SO THEY COULD SAVE £ REPUATIONS AND DAMAGE LIMITATION EXCERSCIE?terrible HOW WE HAVE SUFFERED SINCE CONTINUE TO DO SO TOO? I am a carer but need care 24/7 myself now.I wet myself can't go out alone fall in road fall often Am warn out.what do I do now apart from jump off a bridge run in front of a car? I think like this Every day it is so hard to stay alive.N wonder no one wants to visit talk or spend time with me. Never use to be this bad or think end up like this?I am shocked.When go out have to be with HIM The fat controller the drunk I am co dependant insecure as he is and we love but hate each other? 25 years we have been married 10 was OK until he went to work came home another person after A fatal road crash he killed a old man who stepped in front of his police car on a routine shout. My daughter that same year nearly died of a brain hemorrhage a conclusion vein us burst in her head. I gave a degree up due to panics attacks his illness her illness and my youngest being Bipolar having Behavioral problems All time at school.we lived at her school practically every night trying to resolve Her difficulties. Life is a living HELL always has been can't see past black curtain blackness all about. Thank you so very much Sharon for taking TIME to read and reply x Linda He is dying each day so am I No more to live for not allowed to see my daughters or grandsons grand daughters? They were my light my life my motivation now its all GONE. ANYONE WHO CAN PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE EMAIL ME AT Yahoo iwaslookingforlinda@yahoo.co.uk I Love all my family with all my heart perhaps too much at times and each day wake missing my daughters terribly but glad they are free spirited having choices and doing thier own best in own ways.I just HOPE they pass on to my grand children how very much I value each one of them no matter what state they am in they are always at forefront of daily thoughts prayers and reside in my heart.I want them all to do well in life succeed and achieve what ever motivates makes them happt satisfied and content.I hope pray they each know its OK with me to let go to be free of the pain distress my husband inflicts with his selfish illness but selfish soul.I pray for healing for us all.Cooment here made today being 1 October 2010

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Hi everyone my name is Ryan i need help please i am homeless i am a surf and i work at hemporium ryandaprince@gmail.com

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I am losing myself in fear. t-mur23@yahoo.ca

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29 Jan 2011

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I saw a 'being of light' and he spoke to me. I just read tony stubbs book 'An Ascension Handbook' and it makes perfect sense to me. It must have been an ascended 5th d being. Incredible. motofly7@gmail.com

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Feb 26,2011 healingcliff@yahoo.com  Just wanted to say hello, firist time here, want to say thank you for being here.

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I need help. I need help. I need help. I am so empty, yet so full of anger, pain and sadness. I feel so unfulfilled, just waiting my days out till I die. This world frustrates me, people do. The only connection I feel are with animals. I hate the way humans have dominated and ruined this Earth, I hate the way they abuse its creatures, I hate the way everyone's so superficial and vacuous. I'm so angry. Please help me, I'm fading. My soul is crying. The light is fading.. rose_foundation@hotmail.co.uk

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here is my email: theunimagined@hotmail.com  I am at a crossroad. I had a very difficult childhood and was able to transcend that beautifully. I am a healer and highly psychic, but my desires and ambitions want to make use of other gifts that perhaps are not as prominent...in the arts. I feel like I no longer have the ability to achieve what I want, and somehow many of my surface relationships are in turmoil. I don't know why I'm here and I need change. I thought I had everything figured out, but I am ready to throw away the last 5 years of my life when my light seemed to fade from the brilliant light it once was. Please help, I have a lot to offer the world and I can not even access it anymore.

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06 Apr 2011

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Nice to think there will be an end to all, but I can read here that some of you have been waiting so long...... All the best to all. johntallham@yahoo.com

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11 Apr 2011

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"What is This Darkness?" torihammond1988@yahoo.com

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18 Apr 2011

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Hello Everyone, It breaks my heart to hear about so much suffering that we all go through from time to time. I have been there and have written a book about my experiences that may resonate with some of you. You can find out more information about me and the book at my website: www.jjmalderez.com Love, God, and Everything is all One. May you all be touched by God's Light. Jeff Malderez. jeff@jjmalderez.com

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never give up hope.

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priscillambass@gmail.com  I seem to be having a spiritual crisis, but not brought on my any major life changes. It's been going on for no longer than a month or two, although I do go through bouts of feeling this way. I can't talk to anyone who understands or wants to understand. Your response and consideration is appreciated

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I found this site about a week ago and it has helped me a lot lately. I have the need to read about it daily. It has opened my eyes to so many things and some days I feel very strong about it but there are other days when I get back to my old way of thinking and I don't like it. I am so glad I found this site and I am trying to live by it because it is the only thing that will ever make sense to me but sometimes it's just so difficult to stay on track. If anyone could please contact me at: Jessicanbar@yahoo.com 

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I don't know what to believe anymore, I think my soul is lost. is the devil real, Is God??? I need help I scared for myself and my daughter, i dont want to Die and go to hell If there is one Because I lost Faith. nikkisb20@yahoo.com

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02 Jun 2011

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I can feel my "third eye" and over the past month or so have felt my spiritual enlightenment but over the past week or so its felt as if the white light has been blocked? apologies if this doesn't make much sense I'm a newbie to all of this! darryl.symonds@btinternet.com

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I fell in love with a man 2 years ago. we separated 4 months ago. We tried to get back together but kept misunderstanding motives. Both of us truly loved each other. both of us were at fault in the break up. many issues: homelessness, finding a home, trust, drug and alcohol use off and on, struggle with money, big egos...yet I know there was a very true real love. Why did it have to end? How do I go on? Also there were mental illness such as addiction, ptsd, bipolar etc. I want him back I also want to let go. sometimes i want to die because the pain is so great. jaimielws@juno.com 

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mfleming@access-one.com  My life is changing direction---my whole trust is in the Lord through this uncertainty--- Still have divine love for a "spiritual friend" Thinks he feels the same----

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20 Jul 2011

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Not quite sure what to say...a huge emotional shock happened 3 1/2 years ago that still affects me greatly. I don't know if I am supposed to be learning something or what, but the pain is enormous! It has really shaken me to the core. I thought that I had things "figured out" but now it's as if "the rug has been pulled out from under me". Not much really seems to matter anymore. oladyfuschia@hotmail.com

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I don't know where to begin...I am constantly restless and sick of the world and it's "leaders" continuous enslavement of the people. Nothing that I do seem enough to live happily...as a matter of fact, I believe that it is what I am forced to do by societal structures/routines that is making me feel depressed. I can't seem to connect into a romantic relationship with anyone. I am beginning to think that I am the problem and please I don't want to be. I need someone to tell me what's going on with me. I've been so fearful of the new knowledge I've been coming across on the internet. Everything that I know fell apart and everything new is Earth shattering...What is going on with me. Please help!

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I don't know where to begin...I am constantly restless and sick of the world and it's "leaders" continuous enslavement of the people. Nothing that I do seem enough to live happily...as a matter of fact, I believe that it is what I am forced to do by societal structures/routines that is making me feel depressed. I can't seem to connect into a romantic relationship with anyone. I am beginning to think that I am the problem and please I don't want to be. I need someone to tell me what's going on with me. I've been so fearful of the new knowledge I've been coming across on the internet. Everything that I know fell apart and everything new is Earth shattering...What is going on with me. Please help! bluestellar@hotmail.com

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Hello Everyone, It breaks my heart to hear about so much suffering that we all go through from time to time. I have been there and have worked with people like us for over 11 years. I am writing to all of you out there who feel they could do with helping hand and friendly ear. I have recently set up a spiritual emergency organization online where I offer face-to-face consultations via Skype and help educate people about the The Divine Balance Approach. Not only have I experienced several spiritual emergency episodes but I have also been trained to post-graduate level and have worked in the adult mental health services field since 2001. I believe that to really know how best to help people it is crucial to have had walked a mile in their shoes; experience gives one a very real sense of how God teaches us that we are all part of the Light, all part of Him in a very real sense. Once you become aware of this yourself, only then can you best hold the hand of others along the dark sandy path and help guide them towards the Light: the inner awakening of one's true Self, and the deeply profound realization that we are all 'Together as One'. Feel free to check out the website at www.prescriptionawareness.com Hoping to help those of you who feel they could benefit from my support. Love and Light, Jeff. consultancy@prescriptionawareness.com 

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08 Sep 2011

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I am happy to have found this website. I am open and seemingly ready to find out more about "who I am," after just through an experience of letting go and discovery. janwin8@juno.com

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06 Oct 2011

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I've been going through a "Dark Night of the Soul" for 14 years. I have lost everything including my beliefs. I've been crying off and on for 2 months now and have reached my core which of course revolves around a very abusive and traumatic childhood. I feel so sad. My email: expandedself@hushmail.com

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hi, this is my 1st time on this site, im really lost , i need an intervention, i cnt c a way out, my husband is abusive beyond ur imagination, im afraid, im gona do somethng, we dn t share children. Pls help, and thanku . My name is alex. U can contact me on, 0722799293

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All i can say is that .... Yes all the symptoms certainly apply to me and have done for many years... Uncertainty, despair, lack of direction, lack of identity. Its not for want of trying. All i want is to come out the other side, for there to be a point to it all. Whether or not the phrase Dark Night Of The Soul, or Spiritual/Transpersonal Crisis actually applies to me is another matter. Certainly to see your lifes hopes, dreams, desires dry up in the dust is distressing enough. To go beyond self seems to be the goal as yet unattained. Was it God's doing or just my own self lack?. There was a point at which in my weakness i asked for help. Is this it?. Seems like the proverbial kick in the teeth to me. To what end?. It all ends in sickness and death eventually. Sorry to be a party pooper. Keith keithrowbottom@ymail.com

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04 Jan 2012

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I am going through dark night of the soul and pray to God that it is over soon... With all the pain I am experiencing, there is a voice of wisdom telling me to be strong and follow my heart for God is there holding my hand...

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Hi! I'm fascinated to be here! And as I experience my own Spiritual Ascension, I have so many questions and at the same time I have so many answers too. And I'm eager to connect with those of similar experiences. Godspeed! voicemelter1979@yahoo.com

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Been coming a little unglued about this experince : recently took a rather informal class on reiki (my first introduction to it). Instructions included group meditation & some chakra "work". While watching the intructor demonstracting reiki technique I saw a distinct blue flame rising from her hand. Being a rather left brain individual, I am having trouble applying reason to this. Hallucination? Psychotic break?thanks for any response joysticksandstones@gmail.com 

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23 Mar 2012

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Will I reconnect with an old very spiritual friend again soon with a better relationship? mfleming@access-one.com

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28 Mar 2012

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Hello. I found this site by chance on google, and I do not know where else to direct my questions. I am a young male living in Australia, and I am going through the dark night of the soul. Today is my 30th birthday, and I am sitting alone in my house. I know I am at a halfway point in my life, where I must let go of the negativity of the past, and begin anew for the future. I have been meditating for 10 years fairly intensively and I have had some amazing insights and experiences from it. When I meditate now however, I feel nothing, as though the source has been completely cut off. I know I am beginning a new phase, but I am unsure as to how I can get through this. Recently I have been looking into areas such as Jungian psychology, Gnosticism, and spiritual alchemy, as I find these subjects deeply profound and moving. If anyone would like to talk to me, my email address is darkpath82@hotmail.com . Finally, I would just like to extend my sympathy and thoughts to those of you on here who have endured loss, and who feel cut off. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I wish you all the best.

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18 Apr 2012

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HOLA EN LOS ULTIMOS TIEMPOS SE HA DESPERTADO EN MI UNA GRAN CURIOCIDAD POR SABER LA VERDAD EN NUESTRA VIDA AL TEMA DE LA RELIGION Y EL HOMBRE SI HEMOS SIDO ENGAÑADOS TODO ESTE TIEMPO O NO.BAEP35@HOTMAIL.COM

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I know I am a being of light and have been on a life journey to truth from within. I have had a calling for over 50 years. In the twilight of my life I am beside myself as I am so irritated by others and try to be objective so as to be loving. It is a battle I fight everyday. I Am not happy with any part of living and at times look forward to death. My only fear is the manner of my death as I do not suffer my body well. I just can not believe I am here and how did I do this to myself that I would leave my first home with our creator. Especially that I would prefer to exist by material than within atonement with our father. Nobody I know will listen to what I have to say or have even the least interest in what I know to be spiritual truth. It is hard to find those of like mind. polemid@yahoo.com . (Mike)

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Good day. My name is Lara. I am a 45 year old woman alone as in no family that can stand by me in this time. I have lost everything. My home burned down last year September and my means to an income was cut off then as i work on the internet doing surveys. I have been on a down slide ever since. I took the money that i had and moved from were i lived Nelspruit to Vereeniging. Been looking for work but to no avail. Cant get a loan by banks or loan company's. Now i am loosing my place i rented as money is finished and i do not know what to do. I am so sacred and confused at this time all that is in my mind is get help Lara. But how who will help me? I have no surety so now no one sees chance te help. On the 27th i am to be homeless jobless. Oh i cant do this i am sick with dear. Who will help me to build a new life from nothing. I need money to do this and i need it so fast. If you can help me i shall pay you every cent plus interest but it would take many months as i know my income would have to go to rent food and saying my lender helper back. Thank you for reading this plea for help. Cell 0788541382. Email. lara.vermeulen1@gmail.com 

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Hello every body! Please i want you to take your time and read this testimoni. This is the best testimony in my life that i am sharing with you all. I had a family with a 2 children and a wife, i also had 6 cars, 2 houses and was a manager in a good company but all of a sudden, my friend stole every thing from me with d help of his evil powers from then, i became so poor, but within the last five days, i came accross DR IKPEFUA and he helped me cast a spell through the internet and right now as i am writing this message, my wife and kids are here with me, and i have received an ffer from a better company . An so i am better than before, i thank DR IKPEFUA for his help. And i would love every body that need any help should contact him on ikpefuaspiritualtemple@gmail.com .

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24 Jun 2012

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I'm scared :( twice felt an energy which at first felt like a spontaneous orgasm but then rushes up my spine like a hurricane hits my brain and spins violently untill it passes. Any ideas please?? Carmen.g@hotmail.co.uk

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25 Jun 2012

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love you all

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07 Jul 2012

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after someetime iv spent sometime wasted and some time warned my conteplation. Some gained insights some mistakes unforgiven and rejection upon my reentry. Not sure if those things ive decided to do like low im come housing wait list will happen to wanting to go to back to school with no funding and wanting to leave a job I hate and that has abused me and one that has harmed me to part time dream job that one day work day on wkend drags me to 400 to live in my car. I just want to leave. period and go somewhere and start a new now no one will help me that ive been so long out of coroporate field and income bracket. I want to be somewhere where people wont harm or judge me just cause ive healed faild grew up and want to directly harm me for no reason I know. get out my intuition says. I dont know if I want to toss my life away to ssi mental health funding and never be able to get off it. I have no family to help or firiends. I just have prayer and god

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Hi, I have had a life shattering experience after meeting someone a year ago. I went through a huge emotional trauma and mental breakdown. I can explain later what exactly happened with this person by email. I am very scared that my soul or spirit is shattered. I would like to understand what is happening to my soul at this time. I am even afraid of not going to heaven after I die. Maybe I have done something terribly wrong to deserve this. Erika email: erikaisabel.ferreira@yahoo.ca

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I am not sure what words to say so I will share what came forward a few moments ago: Light that flows, flow into me now, into the deepest parts of me, the parts that are currently yearning to be freed of the chains of my past, locked up by my own fear, resisting in the letting go of the old and embracing the new, I ask you now, In desperation, to open my heart, my soul,my entire being as a new dawn rises within me. Blessings - mpnally@gmail.com 

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<3 beloveds I was really on the path and doing really well....was very in tune, able to heal, beautiful and in communion...recently I made a terrible mistake as to where to live, and I feel like I have accidentally turned my back on salvation...i feel cursed, my looks and health have degenerated.. I fear I may have sinned really badly and also I have no where to go..as the place I was living in has caused me to be this way, I don't want to go back. Help please!! How do I remedy this? I pray for forgiveness all the time.please anybadvice much appreciated; mag.da.len@hotmail.com

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Wow. Thank you soo much for this site. I am reading through it right now. Funny how resources pop up at Divine timing. This was such a blessing. I guess I will express how I am feeling now (this is different for me). I have been in the dark night of the soul for about 3 years intensely. I am so tired-mentally. I feel like a tug of war game is going on inside, like a lion is inside of me. And then I feel guilty for it. So much anxiety, fear, guilt, shame, anger, frustration, helplessness, isolation and feeling abandoned by God. I am usually the one to help others (my defense mechanism I suppose), but as of lately I realize I need to admit my weakness and inability to fix this. I feel like everyday is the same hellish day. I feel more comfortable at night time. I am so happy to know I'm not alone and there are others feeling this too. My whole Life seems ruined. Like nothing in my Life but the basics to keep the body alive and student loan collectors. The part that hurts the most is the hope of fixing it. That maybe there's more I can do to get a job or to fix it and then I feel guilty or ashamed when it fails as always. I'm in prison and I keep wanting to leave, but I never get to just BE where I am then. I don't know anyone I can talk about this with and I have no job or money to pay anyone for a session so I fel totally alone. I am a recluse basically (aside from my best friend that tries to understand it <3). I try so much to change, but I'm so tired. I just want someone to say there is NOTHING you can do. Don't worry about the bill collectors or anything. You tried everything. It is okay to rest now. You can surrender. All is okay. In my moments of clarity, I feel as if everything is okay. I feel as if I'm dying..in a good way, but the resistance is what is hurting so much. I just want to rest in the Awareness that Love is all there IS. I want to die...not physically..mystically..ego death. Thank you again for allowing this outlet. I have no one that truly understands what I'm going through. Sometimes I think maybe I'm just making this all up and then I try to live a "normal" life and it doesn't work. When will I truly accept my helplessness? When will I see that I never had control? Lots of Love to you and everyone on here. We are all the same Ocean. So I feel your pain. If anyone feels guided to, please e-mail me at glowinglotus3@hotmail.com . Just need someone to listen. To meet someone also going through this or has gone through it. *Help* I'm tired of searching so adamantly for help. I will open up and allow God to bring it to me and it already started with finding this site. Thanks again. *hugs* :)

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I have been thrust into an unknown world slowly since 2008. My life seems to be on a downward spiral. I lost my business, my home, and not to long ago, I lost my uncle. Most of all, I have lost myself. Some parts of me are dying and I know that for sure. I'm in complete darkness and the darkness continues to get more and more dark with each passing day. Although it started off very slow, now it seems to be rolling in faster, and my days are faster, while I lye on the couch and watch the days pass me by. It's a scary place, and I feel very along. Some days are good, and some are not. I was not sure what was going on with me. I've spent years (since 2008) trying to claw my way back to the light, I've been trying to catch my life as it falls through my fingers. Every prayer goes unanswered, and I'm not sure that God even hears my prayers. Recently I read a book about The Dark night of the soul, and everything in the book hit home with me. I dont know how I got here, but I'm ready for it to be over. I'm not sure how much more I can take. Its ironic, I'm usually the one that offers help to others, I'm usually strong and confident in my abilities. Now nothing makes sense. I have isolated myself away from everyone. People call me needing my help, but I feel empty, I dont have the energy to help in the way I used to. I'm doing all I can to just surrender to this process and move forward but it proves to be harder than I thought. I'm tired of the darkness - at this point it looks endless and hopeless. I'm not sure what to do. I pray for anyone here that is feeling the way I do. I know God is here and I know he will help eventually. My email is chundagreer@hotmail.com. 

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my sister since her awakening has lived in india where she was striving to become a healer. each year she returned to UK for a month or two for visa reasons. last year she met with AMMA the hugging saint and had darshan with her three times in three days that Amma was in the UK. she worried before the third time that the light she felt was so strong with amma and that she may crash after. her worry became true to her and she sunk into a gradual deep depression. she took an overdose on april 1 and then on may 2 she stepped in front of a train. amazingly although she broke many bones she did not break her back and in fact survived. however, she had a secondary brain injury two weeks later and then a stroke a month later and she is left in a vegetative state, with no sign of recovery. her eyes open but there is noone there in terms of her consciousness. i pray that if her spirit is somewhere nearby, that it is peaceful. if anyone else that is affected by the suicide or attempted suicide of a loved one, please feel free to get in touch at dangermoosse@yahoo.com.  love xxx

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02 Sep 2012

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I am going through a spiritual awakening & I feel so alone at times roybu777@yahoo.com

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08 Sep 2012

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Hi- I've recently gone thru a spiritual emergency and would like to support by emails others who are having similar experiences to mine- that is experiences of oneness and of being on a mystical quest, etc. Email me at jetanoir@hotmail.com  Blessings Jen

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Wondering if there is a connection to my transformation between having breast cancer and allowing the Lord to lead me where He wants me mfleming@eaglecom.net

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Hello, Peace be unto you.I am a private lender,I grant loans to companies and individuals to low and affordable interest of 3%.I just want to give back to my society and I want to help you. Do you need a reliable loan to solve your financial problems?contact us Pst Mrs Kristy Lewellen krislewen@yahoo.com.sg http://www.onemainfinancial.com

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looking those who know how to ascend to another dimension so I can, too (using our own vehicle, you know!) center369@hushmail.com

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04 Dec 2012

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question what does it mean when you see a white light around some souls? heatherjoybritt@yahoo.com

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31 Dec 2012

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carolinemc8@msn.com  I just came across this website and was interested in the spiritual crisis. I understand this to be so true just when I thought I had reached an enlightened way of living my world was altered. Thankfully I have gained so much from the experience of my shadow side and can now understand the energy and interactions much better.

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I feel I am having a spiritual crisis rachaelgreen_rayray@live.co.uk 

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16 Jan 2013

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Please help! I really feel a strong desire to be around others like me but have nowhere to go, and even if I did, no personal transportation/license. I'm feeling more trapped then ever, and I've been dealing with the new energies and negative people for 13 years now. Is there a place where awakened one's are gathering? Any advice would be appreciated. Marc (shaman)

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This is Jennifer. I shared my Dark Night story on this site a few months ago. You are not the only one that has experienced this. The mind wants us to think that. Even in the most painful times, trust that all is going well. Nothing could ever go wrong even though we think it is. "Hell is in the mind. Drop into your heart. Be Here." Words spoken to me from a beautiful friend/teacher. For whatever reason, Life needs you to experience this. Nisargadatta Maharaj said Pain wakes us up and pleasure puts us to sleep. You are being called to Freedom. Accept the call. Namaste. :) glowinglotus3@hotmail.com

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25 Feb 2013

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I have recently fallen into a dark night of the soul time and would love to talk to others who have gone through it smutch@hotmail.com

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09 Mar 2013

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I need spiritual peace within myself, but it's hard for me to stay focused. Can someone help?

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31 Mar 2013

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Hi..I had a kundalini awakening in 2001..completely unexpected and had no spiritual knowledge beforehand..did the usual searching and groups etc but nobody else seem to have had such an experience so stopped the search..lost everything in the process..marriage, job, home, money, friends..just appear to be wandering around lost in life and not fitting in anywhere..was justa mum with two children and living an ordinary life..live on south coast where spiritual help is non existent so just a lonely path..divineorigins_1@hotmail.com

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11 May 2013

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hi brothers and sisters, after my first deep realization, time of great understanding, felling of bliss and oneness with everythig, i noticed overwelming apathy, lak of sense for continuing day to day activities, but in the same time because of previous realization i feel udescribable trust to God and everything what is happening to me, all this experiencess are very new to me and never met personaly anyone who would have same experience, this fact making me feel even more lonley; i would like to conect with you brothers and sisters, marta8magdalena@gmail.com

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Hi brothers and sisters, after my first deep realization, feeling of bliss, oneness with everyone and everything and great understanding, this experience was with me for few months. Since a while im in overwelming apathy, and doubt of nearly everything, my activity in day to day living is after droping a lot, disorientation is very strong, but underneath all this i fell quiet trust to God, Universe, Source however people want call it. All this experience is very new to me, and never met anyone face to face who had similar experience. I would like to conect with you brothers and sisters. Marta. marta8magdalena@gmail.com 

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20 Aug 2013

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Haven't seen many posts on this page for a while now. Maybe that's a good thing. If anyone is experiencing a dark night of the soul, spiritual emergency, winter period, within their awakening and Satsang (meeting in Truth) resonates with you as well, let me know. I shared my story on here and I've been in that cocoon period as well. When you're ready for support, it just shows up, like this website did for me. The main thing is that nothing is wrong. The mind loves to judge you and the situation. But when you feel the pain, it brings you back to NOW, where peace is regardless of any circumstances. My Facebook page has a lot of inspiration too. So if anyone reads this and it resonates leave a note here and I'll e-mail you. :) Namaste.

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13 Sep 2013

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There is something going on in my life that I do not understand. Iwant to understand it, and I need more than what I could ever attain by working a job. People that I do not know have been contacting me, and trying to convince me that a big change is coming and they want to help me be the best that I can be. I need to find an answer. Maybe this is it. redtraci90@gmail.com

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17 Nov 2013

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I am in a spiritual crisis. I am despondent and depressed. I have tried and tried and I think God does not hear me. Sometimes it all seems so pointless. Even in the material world things arenot much better. I have 2 boys who could get along without me, and my husband has been having poor sales at work. I can sense what you might say: about being grateful for my children & husband!! I do!! Most assuredly! This deep saddness with God seems to spill over into every aspect of my life! I keep knocking at the door for God, even trying to listen for God= nothing! There is anger there as well. The anger is directed at myself and God because my spiritual progression has been so slow, making my primary goal of illumination seem distant, and I'm getting older.(60)

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17 Nov 2013

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here is my email, sorry to forget! gweinkauf@hotmail.de

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17 Nov 2013

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I am writing another one because somehow I get the feeling that that even though I wrote back giving you my email address, it may have been lost or something. So,I'll just start over. My frustration/anger with myself/God is about my spiritual progress, or lack thereof. I am depressed & despondent,and it all seems pointless, because every system I try does not work for me.My meditaton practice has not produced the effects I so much desire. I thouht the spiritual life would give Some positive benifits to a person's life. Yes, there are some,but why am I still in such conlict with myself?? My physical health has not been good, which has caused added stress & anger,too.(I have MS, just diagnosed in '11) My primary reason for everything is ascension leading up to full Illumination. There is fustration here as well because everything is so slow I may run out of time.I turned 60 this year.No ah-ha moments or any mystical experiences. Sometimes I get the feeling there is no-one there when I pray. I am totally alone. my email address: gweinkauf@hotmail.de

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05 Mar 2014

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An exciting journey towards enlightening coming my way and gives me an awesome feeling and excitement as I discover new beginning in my life and detached myself from the physical and materialistic world of the 3rd dimension. - edwin.bascon@yahoo.com

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24 Apr 2014

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I had a near death experience or maybe I died for minute s.I'm not sure.this is what I experienced.the room was dark except some bright stairs which I climbed.at the top there was a bright door with a big dark figure behind it.I ran down the stairs and kept running.all around me there were white or bright figures.I can't remember if they were running with me or standing there.the next thing I knew the nurse was calling my name to see if I would respond.I am confused about what it means.my e-mail is theresa_covey@yahoo.com

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05 May 2014

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well not so long ago i had my dark night of the soul and i must say that it really has opened my eyes in a way i had never thought possible. i had truly lost all faith in a god like being like every religion is always preaching about. but after loosing it all, my job, my health, my home, deep financial problems i now realize that i haven't lost it all. I seem to have found a little bit of the old ways back. I still have great difficulty comprehending it all but i just try to focus on bringing aid to those who stumble on my path and i try to spread the love and thank mother earth, all her angels and off course the great creator. ONE LOVE Just a man from The Netherlands and i just like to spread this further: 'I offer you peace. I offer you love. I offer you friendship. I see your beauty. I hear your need. I feel your feelings. My wisdom flows from the Highest Source. I salute that Source in you. Let us work together for unity and love.' - Mahatma Gandhi

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06 May 2014

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I am experiencing the most challenging time in my life, and hating it and loving it all at the same time.

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06 May 2014

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Beautiful testimonies that there is Love even in the deepest hell! :) <3

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15 May 2014

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If anyone is going through the dark night of the soul and wants support from someone who found Love, found God in the darkest of nights feel free to check out my website at: tathina.weebly.com  Namaste.

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28 May 2014

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Hi, I’m a bit nervous telling people about this. I only really told my family about it. I just turned 28, at the time of my “awakening” I was 27. A few months ago I had a dream where this tall white very human like alien extended his hand out to me; wanting me to come on this space ship. I smiled, he smiled as I was walking toward him I woke up. After that I started looking up information about tall human like aliens. I was surprised to see that it’s a history of this stuff something I never knew anything about. I got into mediation after a week or so when I first got into deep mediation my entire body got very warm. I was a good feeling like I never had before I smiled I think there was a bright light I’m not too sure about that. I got over excited of the feeling and my mind stated to wonder again bring me out my deep meditation state. My journey lead me into metaphysics, I never heard of metaphysics. But it all makes sense to me I hungry for information, I search the internet every day. May 6, 2014 I all of a sudden stopped eating meat, I just didn’t have a desire to eat meat any more. I have respect for nature which I never paid any attention to. What’s going on with me I don’t even see the world the same anymore it’s like I always need I was different every since I was small. Any comments will be very very helpful. krumper20@live.com

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29 May 2014

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SUPPORT for anyone who resonates with this: I just recently added a forum for the dark night of the soul, poetry, and awakening reports for people to share their experiences in a sacred space under the community tab. We are together in our aloneness. Also there is music, photography, and writings for anyone that resonates with the simple invitation to stop giving attention to the mind and use the feelings without a story as guidance to the Silence and Peace that you ARE right now. You can find all of this, the story of my Winter Period, and a lot more at... Tathina.com :) Namaste.

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07 Jun 2014

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07 Jul 2014

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I'm diagnosed bipolar. During my most recent manic episode a spiritual atomic bomb was unleashed inside of me. Synchronicity was everywhere and I was filled with unconditional love, and was given a sudden celestial lesson in hand mudra's and even channeling. However I've since been thrust into what I've learned is a dark night. help me. geedubbish@gmail.com

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20 Jul 2014

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I recently have been reading a lot about spirituality and my purpose here on earth. I read book after book while doing meditation at the same time. I have already noticed a huge change in my attitude when it comes to my work life. Before I used to get overwhelmed and worry all the time about upcoming deadlines etc. Ever since meditation, this has changed vastly. No longer do I worry, and I try to stay in the present moment. I have also learned to deal with negative comments, and have become much less judgemental than I was in the past. My problem now lies in the fact that I feel alone in my journey. I know I want to keep going, but feel I need somebody to help me as I have become very lonely as of late. Friends that I used to have, I no longer connect with, and now I can honestly say I have nobody to talk to that understands where I am coming from. Please help ericjmeguiar@gmail.com

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06 Aug 2014

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Life has become so unfair to sincere people in the world we are today. Unfairness is now the order of the day because of Trust. So many people have been treated with so much unfairness trying to make way for themselves. So Many people have lost their life saving through the internet. So many relationship/ families have been broken because of unfairness. I am here to help you spiritually to restore all that you have lost in the past. I am a Spiritualist in Nigeria called Mudemude Lee. I am the priest of Mudemude High Temple that can use Black Magic Power to restore all you have lost, bring back your family, and make you very rich. I can also make people who stole from you in what so ever means return your money back. I can perform some spiritual ritual for you to grow your dying business ( can make your business number one ) I cure any kind of illness like cancer, HIV, fruit of the womb and others...This can make you have a better life you want. Contact me at mudemudetemple@yahoo.com

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16 Sep 2014

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Anyone else feel like they're in limbo within the awakening process? Totally in the cocoon. Too far transformed to go back to the old and not all the way transformed to really see what is going on. Everything is crumbling that isn't true and no matter how much it hurts and how alone you are, you have to follow your truth. This is the only thing that will set you free. There's nothing to do but to surrender to the depression and fear and whatever else is coming up in the moment as the ego is running out of moves. You may have been the one to be a "helper" and inspiring to others, but even these labels are burning in the Truth. It's an agony and an ecstasy. And it's a real experience and not just something you read in a book.

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25 Sep 2014

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Is there a greater plan for all of us? will it be revealed only at a certain time? I'm struggling with the purpose of struggle right now. I want to find my spirituality

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27 Sep 2014

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Maybe there is no purpose in struggle and the struggle is coming from searching for something that is hidden in plain sight?

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07 Oct 2014

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The pain embraced frees us from the mind tyranny. Only courage will set you free. Bliss and Peace is Now. The dark night helps us to make peace with the unknown. And only in our aloneness do we discover our freedom. Feel everything there is to feel and this will guide you.

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13 Nov 2014

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You are what you are searching for. Always Here. Tathina. com

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16 Jan 2015

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On October 22, 2014, After six months of suffering from the loss of my husband of 20 years (he was in a two and a half year relationship which the kids and I were unaware of and they had taken all of our money) and the loss of my land and cottage in Northern Ontario as well as a serious illness that came back (renal failure with no hope for a transplant). As I crawled into bed that evening I felt a flutter in my heart and awoke the next morning to the most profound sense of peace and oneness I had ever experienced. It lasted about two days and still remains slightly in my heart. I am now back to my daily routine and the thoughts seem to be magnified as well as sounds in the left side of my head. I am constantly thinking and worrying and wonder why this now seems to be so . Is this a part of the awakening process? I feel anxiety while driving and a deep hurt for my children and a longing for revenge towards my husband. I am not enjoying this process. PLEASE HELP? How long does this last? cindy.miller@directlinkmortgage.com

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17 Jan 2015

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I have for this lifetime been feeling deep food attachment. The world as a whole is moving through this (GMO, earth-surface maladies), how can I assist and release it through my own body? Aho, Aho, Aho staryrivetti@yahoo.com

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19 Jan 2015

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19 Jan 2015

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I AM in Desperate need of HELP from Anyone with Kindness, Compassion, & willingness to Listen! I have no $$$, but able to give LOVE in ALL Ways!!! I AM an American living in Germny. I AM ALL alone, as in being by myself 24/7. If someone with a little geld ($$$), I need it desperately, as my family has none. Someone help me please! I AM presently in hopital, awaiting transfer to an MS(multiple scerosis)rehab clinic. Listen to your Heart, then respong! God help me!write me: gweinkauf@hotmail.de

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19 Jan 2015

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I AM in need of Healing. in ALL ways!!! Please! Somebody have a little compassion!!

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30 Jan 2015

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I was reading my post from several years ago and it was interesting seeing what space I was in at the time vs now. The main thing that changed was that I'm at peace with all the feelings and I don't give the story so much attention. I was so tired from fighting myself and searching outside of myself. Now I am allowing myself to simply be myself. But this Peace I am continually discovering to not be separate is Here and has always been Here. Just a shift in attention from my mind to THIS. I was reading through all the posts on this page and I was curious to hear other reports from people that experienced the dark night and what is their experience now or anyone experiencing it now. Feel free to contact me at Tathina.com

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07 Feb 2015

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I am going through a dark night phase and would like to connect with others for companionship and inspiration. Thank you!

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07 Feb 2015

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I am going through a dark night phase and would like to connect with others for companionship and inspiration. Thank you!

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07 Feb 2015

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I am going through a dark night phase and would like to connect with others for companionship and inspiration. Thank you!

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09 Feb 2015

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i am going through a very strong spiritual crisis and i like to more about this process. email. amisdaq@yahoo.com

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09 Feb 2015

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Just looking to connect with others who have experienced the Dark Night in an attempt to not feel so alone in the experience. Thank you. scorpchick72@yahoo.com

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10 Mar 2015

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NEW BOOK coming out next week that could be really good for those in the dark night of the soul. "The Invitation (to Live) (the Truth)" Visit tathina.com for more information. Some chapters are on "Spiritual Detox" and "The Winter Period" and practices to help ground and center you during this time. All from my own experience with the Dark Night. Namaste'.

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20 Mar 2015

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FOR ANYONE IN THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL ready to make peace with this experience and all aspects of themselves, my new book "The Invitation (to Live) (the Truth)" is now available on amazon in paperback and on kindle. Visit tathina.com or amazon.com. Through my own experience with the Dark Night, this book was birthed to assist anyone experiencing this. This is what was helpful for me and maybe it will resonate with you as well. Contact me at tathina.com with your reports or questions. Namaste' <3

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27 Mar 2015

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03 Apr 2015

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15 Apr 2015

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Heavy energies these days :) L&L Ida idadzindo@gmail.com

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04 May 2015

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I am currently in the throes of a depression after beginning an interfaith seminary. I'm not sure which way is up. I welcome any suggestions. I am on the verge of losing my job due to the depression. I can't seem to connect with Spirit. I welcome any guidance or suggestions. Guynftl@YAHOO.COM

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04 May 2015

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I am currently in the throes of a depression after beginning an interfaith seminary. I'm not sure which way is up. I welcome any suggestions. I am on the verge of losing my job due to the depression. I can't seem to connect with Spirit. I welcome any guidance or suggestions. Guynftl@YAHOO.COM

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04 May 2015

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I am currently in the throes of a depression after beginning an interfaith seminary. I'm not sure which way is up. I welcome any suggestions. I am on the verge of losing my job due to the depression. I can't seem to connect with Spirit. I welcome any guidance or suggestions. Guynftl@YAHOO.COM

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04 May 2015

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I welcome any guidance. I am going through a dark depression after beginning seminary. Please help. GUYNFTL@YAHOO.COM

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07 May 2015

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30 May 2015

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i can't easily describe what happened to me, after a very long and difficult several years. I didn't realize what it might be until I received some energy healing last week. A lot led up to this, but the experience I had...I don't even know on how many levels it actually happening. I had this energy healing on Wednesday. All kinds of shame was coming up, like mountains of it from forever and it felt so bad. I was very tortured. I went to bed. I woke up at 3 am in such intense emotional pain about failures and shame and utter emptiness. Despair. I was crying so hard. Finally in pure despair I got on my knees next to bed. I remember crying and praying to God not for anything at all just crying out my incredible failure and despair. Choked out some kind of surrender in the midst of such intense and horrible emotional pain. It was hell. I knew with brutally painful certainty that I was at the rock bottom of all bottoms. I don't know if this part happened in 3D or not. I could not bear it any more. There's not such pain on a human level it was so much worse. Now it must be a vision or something because I was on the floor and had my right hand on a small 12x12 mat with a grid on it. I don't know what the was about. But the excruciating emotional pain of hell...I was right at a crossroads. I knew that I had in the house a stash of pills and I knew I could end this pain quickly. There was a presence next to me. My desire to die was exactly equal to my desire to live. A moment in eternity and the presence kind of a muted gold light...something in me tipped just enough. I had decided to choose life. Not aware of anything but complete exhaustion. I guess I got back in bed. Was I even out of the bed? I think I was. I woke up the next morning not the same person at all. I felt I had been scoured out of all negativity and patterns, like I was fully in my body for first time ever. Filled with God and Light. What happened to me? Any correspondence appreciated, thanks. Kathylgoedert@gmail.com

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17 Jun 2015

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Namaste' beloved. If you are reading this: Everything is okay even when it seems like it isn't. Tathina.com

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